I can’t explain it….. I just woke up different.
Going to bed with a heavy heart and mourning over folks that don’t love you is a complete waste of time. You can’t make people love you or even like you. So why even try? Let that mess go and live your life the best way you can. I refuse to sit here and wonder why people that should love me and have my back DON’T and never did.
I have to sit back and laugh because it seems like for a lifetime, that really bothered me and I sought out for answers and my rock (my husband) told me to just stop. He said look at everything you have around you and all the people that love you for you and wouldn’t change one thing about you. So today (not really today) I bid you all a farewell. To all those that have just taken up space in my already filled to the rim life, to all those that like to screenshot my photos and then talk about it, to all those that like to place blame on everyone but yourself. But most of all to those that talk a big talk and are silenced in my presence. I gave you all enough of my time and you are no longer living rent free in my mind.
It is unbelievable how much peace and joy you have when you focus on your business and surround yourself with love. It took me almost 38 years to realize that love should be easy. Love is not combative. Love is not talking about you as soon as you leave the room.
For years I kept to myself because I didn’t trust anyone. I did, as I still do put all my energy into my kids and my husband. My household is number one and I refuse to have my children grow up and wonder what trust and love is. Believe me…they know. I took a mental note for quite sometime and did the opposite of everything I saw. Now I’m not saying my household is perfect but it is built out of respect,LOYALTY and TRUST. My husband doesn’t have to wonder if I am faithful and neither do I. My kids know that WE will support and encourage them in everything they do. My daughters know that their education is just as important as my son’s education. College isn’t based on gender (why do I even need to say that).
Quick question. Why would you allow chaos and ignorance to come back into your peaceful and joyful life? (true story as I typed that last sentence my husband walked passed me and said wow it’s so peaceful and nice in here). Can you give yourself one good solid answer to that? I can’t.
Find someway to ignore and erase confusion away. Take yourself out of their meaningless equation and just live.
Simplifying your life is the best gift that you can give to yourself.
I wish I could explain fully how I reached this freedom, but I can’t. I just woke up different…..
You could have chosen any blog to read but you chose mine and I’m honored